FINDING ME

HI! I'M LEITH

This podcast was born as part of my journey to better understand myself, my interests, what makes me tick. For a long time I thought something was wrong with me. I was miserable in every job I tried even though I talked to hundreds of people, I read countless self-help books, got a second degree, moved continents. I feel like I tried EVERYTHING. I kept getting the advice “find your passion” but that seemed to elude me. I felt passionless, hopeless, frustrated. EXHAUSTED.

 

I do remember reading one self help book that told the story of a woman who discovered she had no interests of her own and that was the first time I stopped to question my own interests. How had I gotten to my mid-30’s without any interests? This felt embarrassing, even shameful.

 

It’s been a slow journey of trying to find what interests me and what makes me tick. I’ve come to learn a lot of things about myself but one of the big ones is that I’m a people pleaser - I’ve spent my whole life seeking the approval of others - being a good daughter, a polite child for teachers, a hard worker to my bosses. I would flinch at the slightest disapproval or rejection from others. I don’t know why. I guess I just didn't feel that I was enough.

 

This podcast is one step I’m taking to reconnect with myself, rediscovering my true nature, my authentic self, my true self, finding joy or meaning in my life - whatever you want to call it. I’m FINDING ME.

 

For the first time I’m not looking to what I think I should do or seeking anyone's approval but instead I’m trusting my intuition, learning from my own mistakes and finding my own way.

 

I decided to start a podcast for no good reason other than I thought it would be less time consuming than writing stories. A few years ago I started a website with a friend that told the stories of working mothers. We went out and interviewed working mothers and wrote up their career journeys. I learned that I really enjoyed hearing the stories of other women, I was a lot better at writing than I thought but I found my process laboursome and time consuming. The website no longer exists but it got me thinking about podcasting and here we are.

 

For this podcast, I set out to hear other women’s stories about their journey of self discovery. How did they figure out they weren’t being true to themselves and since learning this what changes have they made to their lives? I can’t begin to tell you how comforting it is to know that I’m not alone and I’m hopeful that by sharing our stories we can inspire and motivate other women to embark on their own journey of self discovery.

 

I believe so strongly that we each have so much to offer and when we do it from a place of being our true selves - like when we played as kids - then we bring so much more meaning to our own lives and such a greater contribution to the world around us. If this podcast can allow even one woman to pause and reflect on themselves and to reconsider “that’s just the way it is” that would be rewarding in itself.

 

At the moment I’ve created one season which consists of 10 Episodes or conversations. A new conversations will launch every week. I’ve tried to keep each conversation within about 45min to an hour - this seems long enough to honour each woman’s story and not too long to listen to. I intend to create a second season and would love to do so with feedback. I’m always looking for new interviewees, new questions to ask, new ideas or to simple connect with others.